I'm back

I'm back here again.It's been nearly 6 months since my last post.Kind of fade out of this blogging scene.Well now I'm back to my random ramblings cause I needed to type out my thoughts rather than keeping it inside.

The year 2008 hasn't been great so far.Although I turned 21(yes,coming of age),I never really looked forward to it or planned to go crazy with a celebration.I just grown out of looking forward to my birthdays since 4 years ago.I don't really care for that matter.Really,it doesn't bother me at all...But then I really appreciate the company of my two besties in Lasalle, Dewi and Min on my 21st birthday.We had a blast laughing our heads off at MINDS Cafe.Good food,good ambience,good games but most of all GREAT company! Thank you guys again!

Lately I feel like the biggest quitter on earth.School hasn't been good this semester.Well actually it hasn't been since the start of year 3.Anyways,as some of you know, I've been skipping classes A LOT.My absence are more that my presence.I'm not doing it on purpose.At first it is due to my poor time management between school and work commitments.Then slowly it is due to the 'wonderful' lecturers and the course structure,or should i say lack of...I'm stubborn.I know that.When my mind is set to something,I have to do it or to get it no matter what.I'm weak mentally.I can't fight those demons.God,I feel like a failure.If i don't graduate in a few months, that only proves it further.That I'm a quitter.I quit Millenia Institute to pursue my burning interest in design.Now the fire has been put off.Thanks to the 'excellent' teaching, or lack of...again...

All of a sudden,I don't know what am I to do with my life...I said so many times about quiting Starbucks.But somehow I feel attached to them.It got me this far.Porbably my first and last part-time job.I lasted 2 years and 2 months now.Got promoted within 2 years but i do regret taking up the promotion.The schedule and shifts are not as flexible as before.Doesn't help that there are more responsibilities and you are expected to be miss-know-it-all.Well,on the bright side the pay is way better than before...

Am i going to make it?Or am I not? I honestly don't know.But most part of me says im not going to make it this year.Bummer...

Gosh what the hell is wrong with me? Sometimes i just want to sleep and never wake up.Truth be told,I'm absolutely scared of facing tomorrow...

day: sunday
date : 2 sep' 07
time : 1.55am back from work
place : kitchen
what : eatin lasagne & 'tulang' (bone steak)
outcome : -happy tummy
-just gained 5 pounds
-food stains on laptop key pads


simple things in life made pleasurable...................

just randomness...

@ liang seah st
[on the way to work(was late btw)...]


@ clarke quay
[doesn't it look like its flying through the clouds?]


@ clarke quay


@ clarke quay
[the clouds looks so beautiful]

paul smith...floral

finally!! u are mine paul smith floral!

this is the first time i spent so much on a perfume.

but kinda worth it coz of the free stuffs that comes with it! haha!

laptop bag, a make up pouch sort of, miniature 'original' & 'extreme', as well as 4 mini refillable paul smith floral...

late lunch/dinner at magic wok again. 2 days in a row. but one thing remain the same...my thai fried baby squid! ooohh...yum yum yum.....ate till im fully bloated...felt like a pig..

anyhow, bought a crop pants n top from esprit. my fren's fren was working so we got 40% off! woohoo! ahha! soooo happpieee! wanted to buy more stuff but paiseh & shy lar...if my fren nvm...

contemplating on whether to still get a vans shoe or this nike shoe or adidas original shoe....? how?

practical 3 tmr morng...hope i could pass this once...kinda excited & nervous at the same time..

im still full but i want dessert..tink i shall munch on my 3 berries in a merry muffiin then...

most wanted list:
-puma jacket
-puma bag
-vans shoe
-specs
-PSP


at times i donno why i even bother to blog...do i blog for the sake of blogging or blog to record down my daily activites so as to keep friends & myself updated on myself...does it even matter?
my life's a bore...nothing out of the ordinary happening...not yet i think...hmm...just ponder upon this for a while...


next stop ----> lesson 3

just got back from work. my eyes are damn tired. no ones home except for my bro whose sleeping on the sofa & snoring away. damn irritating. feel like stuffing his face with the cushion. ya i know i have a sick & morbid mind...

im considering.
should i stay or should i go.
if there is an opportunity, should i go for it?
things could turn out better.
it could aid me in my current situation.
still weighing my options.
i had hoped for this some time ago.
but when the opportunity arises, the 'spark' has gone.
who can help me decide...



ps: wie, we planned to go to that place before school start. are u still on for it? if u get what i meant...

im still awake...

can i haf this?

or maybe this?


just dream on for now...